Sometimes in order to move forward, we need to take a moment to look back. It’s never good or right to stay with our face to the past and our back to the future, but reflecting on where we’ve been can help guide where we are going.
I consider this as I look back at this year and stare headstrong into the new year. That’s not a typo. I’m staring headstrong, because that’s a blessed strength…and weakness of mine.
It’s also abundantly obvious it’s a genetic “gift” that’s been passed down to me and has been passed to my “mini-me.”
This year I truly want to use this “gift” for the Glory of God…and much less for my own glory.
For a few weeks I’ve been ruminating (how’s that for cattle terminology from the cattleman’s wife?) on what one word I could focus on this year. What one word could I use as a catalyst for deeper worship and more intense Bible study, that will take me further along the road with Christ than I’ve made it before?
I thought I had it figured out and then completely out of the blue my one word became completely obvious while sitting in worship this past week. Because that’s completely how God works.
It’s not a word I like, because it’s not a word I even completely understand. It’s not neat and tidy and pretty like the presents we either opened or watched our children devour recently.
My one word goes completely against who I am. It’s not in my make-up to be or do, but then again it is in my make-up to be and do, because it’s of God and I’m of Him.
Sometimes God flashes a neon light in my black and white world and right now this word is on it. For a headstrong girl, the word submit would not be her first choice of a word to cling to and wear as a banner over her life for an entire year.
Which is why I know this word hasn’t been chosen by me. It’s been chosen by Him for me.
As I timidly step from the old into the new, I do it in submission to the One giving me the ability and opportunity to take this step.
For all of the ways I have not submitted to Him in the past, I truly want to submit to Him and Him alone now.
This isn’t about me going against the grain of my little world that may not understand or support decisions I have made or will continue to make. I am not in this life to please others. I am in this life to please God. And that’s all I want to do.
Submit to Him.
And if I start getting any and all of that right, even if it’s perfectly imperfect as I’m sure it will be, then I will be getting my life right and those in my care will be getting what they need from me.
I am a dreamer. I dream big dreams and fall big heights when they don’t work out like I hope they will. But I don’t believe that it’s impossible to be a submissive dreamer.
Maybe God wants to show me that if I can learn to submit to Him in all the ways, He will inspire and fulfill new and bigger dreams than I ever imagined possible.
Maybe God’s been waiting for me to wait on Him.
As I learn to submit to His will and leave my own behind, I expect a few twists in the road and some unavoidable bumps. Because that’s how life rolls anyway. But with God in the lead, I can trust the twists, turns and bumps will be necessary and beneficial for a smoother road ahead.
I invite you to ruminate on your own word for the year. What is God speaking into your heart? Where does He want to take you this new year?
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